Tristram La Roche

Surviving on alcohol and antidepressants, Mark staggers through his unhappy marriage and watches his London architectural business head for the rocks. When another nasty argument with his wife sends him to the gym to blow off steam, a tall, dark stranger enflames a part of him he’s denied all these years, trying to convince himself he’s not “weird.” But Mark’s not weird, he’s gay. And after a taste of Attila’s lips, nothing can put that genie back in the bottle…

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Reviews for On My Knees

'Just like the blurb states, this story is about discovery and a man's journey to find his true self that he has hidden for years. This novella did it for me. I liked the author's style of writing, and the ease in which he used words to pull everything together. The story was realistic and I could easily imagine this scenario playing out in many men's lives, and I'm sure it has. I consider this to be a top read, and Mr. La Roche will be on my list for writers to explore in the future. A+'

Man Oh Man Reviews

'Tristram La Roche’s debut novella is a treat for the diehard romantic in all of us. Poignant and sweet, it’s a celebration of the sort of love that sneaks up on Mark and Attila, not like a welcome breeze on a warm day; rather, it’s the sort of love that hits like a hurricane and sweeps the two men away, powerless against it.'

Top2Bottom Reviews

'Tristram captures a moment in time where a man connects with his true self for
the first time. It was a beautiful journey I felt privileged to witness.
Learning to be who we really are despite what others may think is a learning process for all of us. Mark just happened to learn much later in life. The sex scenes were steamy without being graphic, and I was satisfied with the mixture of emotions and physical contact, but wouldn’t have minded seeing more. This was a great read; the romance was real spicy and intriguing. If you’re curious about M/M romance, this is the perfect place to start. 4 Stars.'

The TBR Pile

'I didn't think that I was going to enjoy this book. All I could see at first was this weak little man all set to cheat on his wife. But, as I read on, I began to root for him. It was sweet to watch him get in touch with not only his orientation, but his personhood. Would I change anything...maybe I'd let Mark explore a bit more before I gave him a happily ever after. But, all in all...I enjoyed this book and would definitely recommend it.'

Portia de Moncur      

'This is a sweet but hot “coming out” novella that manages to convey both anguish and delight in a fairly short work. His characters are so touching and realistic that they left me wondering with concern what their futures held. I have a feeling we might see more of at least one of them (Justin comes to mind) since he piqued my imagination as soon as he made his appearance. For those who enjoy their sex-scenes hot (and I needed the air-conditioning on full blast), then this won’t disappoint, yet this aspect was not in the least gratuitous and was handled with aplomb and skill. I give full marks to Tristram and look forward to reading what he has to offer in the future.'

Susan Roebuck   

'I don't want to give any spoilers here but this really is a very well written, authentic story about real characters who I cared about. Tristram LaRoche is a new name to me. I shall be looking out for him in the future because he writes well and he's 'relevant' in this day and age (as Simon Cowell would say). Gets my 5 stars!'

Catherine Cavendish  


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About Tristram La Roche

Tristram La Roche was born in London and spent much of his childhood in Europe. His career has included tourism and yacht charter, as well as a brief period working as a freelance journalist. His interests include travel, art, theatre, cinema, books and current affairs, and he is passionate about the rights of the GLBT community. On My Knees (Etopia Press) was his debut romance and an genre bestseller. Since then he has had three more novellas published; Lorenzo il Magnifico (Evernight Publishing); Fixed (Etopia Press) and The Hun and The General (Etopia Press). Tristram writes gritty gay fiction. He lives between London and the north of England with his civil partner.


Also by Tristram La Roche

Lorenzo il Magnifico (Evernight Publishing)

Fixed (Etopia Press)

The Hun and The General (Etopia Press)


An Interview with Tristram La Roche
By Holly Hewson for The Romance Studio

HH: Tristram, thank you for talking with us at TRS. Your featured book is On My Knees and it's the emotionally charged story of a man finding the real him when his world starts to collapse around him. First, where did the idea for this sizzling tale come from?

TLR: Dare I say, real life? It wouldn't be true to say On My Knees is autobiographical, but my own experience of coming out is what led me to write it. My life was a kind of living hell before I found myself but I know I'm not the only one. There were and still are many gay men trapped in fake heterosexual lives, trying to make a go of things, trying to be 'normal' and I feel their inner torment. It is a story that must be told and retold in order to get the message out that there is an alternative, there is hope and happiness. Yes, it's a huge step for some, it was for me - I had parents who wanted me to go see a doctor to make me 'well' again - but hopefully changes in society will make it easier. But we have to keep pushing for those changes and fighting bigotry and hatred.

HH: What do you like best about Mark and why will readers relate to him?

TLR: He's a good person who just can't cope. His depression stems from his inability to acknowledge his homosexuality and this is then worsened by other factors.His wife is not a nice person - some may see her behaviour as a reaction to his emotional turmoil and that's fine by me, but really the marriage is in trouble even without Mark being gay; there is that little niggle hanging in the air, could he have saved the marriage if his wife had been kind and warm? Would he have wanted to, and would it have been right? I rather like that complication! Then, because his mind is so stretched out, his business is in trouble. He isn't bad at what he does but his eye isn't on the ball and he stumbles from one setback to another. He is, in fact, on his knees. A decent chap who wouldn't hurt a fly, suffocated by his own life - until he finds the missing element.

HH: What do you like best about Attila and why will readers love him?

TLR: Attila couldn't be more different from Mark in that he's succesful, sorted and lives a carefree uncomplicated life. At first he seems to treat Mark unfairly but this is only because he is afraid of falling in love so soon, and with a married man. He doesn't want to hurt himself, but neither does he want to hurt Mark. His show of strength comes to nothing when his emotions win through.

HH: What does your story have to offer that can't be found in any number of m/m romance on the market at the moment?

TLR: Readers make their own choices and I certainly don't want to be seen to criticise other authors, but you've asked the question so I have to give some sort of answer! When it was suggested to me that I write M/M romance I naturally did a lot of reading in the genre. Now, let me say that I found some good stuff, but I was also taken aback at how much of it I found to be completely unreal. As a gay man who mixes with other gay men from all walks of life, I couldn't recognise any of the characters - they all seemed so...girlie. This gave me my idea to write it how it is, to show the readers what gay men are really like, warts and all. Perhaps this is why I'm said to write 'gritty' and 'dirty' gay fiction rather than traditional MM romance. Gay life is sex driven. Sex comes first, not flowers and chocolates and candlelit dinners for two.

HH: What else do you have in store for lucky readers?

TLR: My latest novella, The Hun and The General, is an historical tale about the legendary barbarian warrior Attila the Hun who has a relationship with a Roman general. I enjoyed writing it so much that I am going to write more historicals this year. I may also go in completely the other direction and write a futuristic SciFi. Incidentally, that Attila is the name of Mark's lover in On My Knees has no connection whatever with The Hun and the General; it doesn't mean I have a thing about the name! What happened was that a fan who read On My Knees said casually on Goodreads, "Oh, wouldn't it be great if someone wrote about Attila the Hun and made him the sub?" And I fell for it!

HH: At what point did you decide you wanted to become an author and how did that come to be?

TLR: All my life I felt I wanted to be an author but I was always too busy running my business to do anything about it. I was trapped, to tell the truth, unable to make the change. In time I grew so bored with what I was doing that I started to become ill. This coincided with the global recession which all but finished off my business so I took that as an opportunity, sold everything and started writing. I submitted my first novella, On My Knees, to Etopia Press in April 2011. They accepted it and since then I have had four novellas published. 

HH: What goals have you set for yourself at this point in your career?

TLR: To keep writing, and to keep telling it how it is. I think if you can write, it's a real waste not to do it. 

HH: What sources of inspiration do you draw from for ideas?

TLR: Life is the greatest source of inspiration. I have been lucky to have led such an unusual life, living all around Europe, meeting larger than life people, doing things that many cannot even imagine. It would be a crime not to bring these things to life and share them with my audience. But I can also find inspiration among the pages of the local newspaper! People's lives are fascinating, even if they can't see it for themselves.

HH: What's your favorite book so far in 2012?

TLR: Man's World, by Rupert Smith. It's an old book, but new to me!

HH: What are you most looking forward to in 2012?

TLR: Every good thing it throws at me.

HH: Thank you!


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